One of my most favorite things in the world is to relax. And by that I mean, get a massage, reflexology, a manicure or pedicure, etc. I love the healing power of touch, ever since I was a baby when my crying fits could only be calmed by my mother rubbing my legs (or so I’m told). It was the one thing that could always calm me. There’s just something about another person providing a calming effect with their hands.
For the last few years I have been getting massages and reflexology treatments every so often, and I can’t tell you how much I love them, not only for the relaxation benefits, but also because it provides quiet time for me and allows me to focus on just me, allows my mind to wander where it will. And let’s face it, it’s rare that most of us have time to focus just on ourselves, let alone actually do it.
Now imagine that the relaxation comes with a little bit of insight. I just returned from a reiki/reflexology session at my yoga studio. I signed up mainly for the reflexology part of it – I had never experienced reiki. The write up also said that the healer would do a psychic reading if something were to come up, though that wasn’t the focus of the session.
I find psychic readings intriguing. I have had a few small readings done but never a full-on reading. There’s a café near my place of work that offers Psychic Mondays. My friend and I have gone a few times. You go in for a meal, put your name on the list, and when a psychic is available (there’s about four seated throughout the restaurant), they send you over to her for a twenty-minute reading. The first one told me all about myself, things I already knew – things like I’m very literary, I like to read and write (then she proceeded to ask me what profession I’m in), that I’m a very honest person, that I go out of my way to do things for others, that I feel as though I should have been born in a different time period, etc. She didn’t really tell me anything about my future except to say that in five years I would get everything I wanted at work (but this was only after she asked if I was happy there). I didn’t really like her – I didn’t feel that she said anything I didn’t already know, and I felt like she asked questions she should have known the answer to, or at the very least, not said something so vague in regards to my answer to a question she saked, making it sound like she was just telling me what she thought I wanted to hear.
The second reading I had done there I got someone different and she said things that were very true, though they were things that had already happened – she asked if someone close to me was sick (my father) and mentioned something about a surgery he had (which he had); she said something about a couple close to me who were having marital troubles (she described their looks and while I didn’t know if it was true for sure, it was something I could see happening); she said something about a pregnancy (the friend I was with was pregnant at the time). She said many others things as well, and while I don’t remember the specifics, I do remember that they were all spot on but that they were things I already knew about, so not so much with the looking into the future.
The third time I had a reading done, I got the first woman again (even though I requested not to get her), and she didn’t tell me anything new. Again she told me all about myself and said the exact same thing about work that she had the first time – that I’d get everything I wanted in five years. At this point, it had been about two since I had been there the first time, so you can imagine that I didn’t quite believe her. I have not gone back to that restaurant since.
I seem to have a love/hate relationship with psychics. It’s not that I don’t believe that there are people out there with abilities to see in to the future and speak with people who have passed on. I do believe that some people can. But I also believe that there are plenty of people out there who say they can do those things just to make a quick buck. And while I’m very curious about what a “real” psychic would say to me, I’m also very afraid of what they might say. I’m afraid they’ll tell me something I don’t want to hear, that they’ll uncover some deep, dark secret that even I don’t know about. But I’m also scared of what they won’t say. My friend has been to many psychics and she’s often told that her (deceased) grandmother is watching over her, that she has numerous angels by her side. I would love to hear that my grandmother or my father is watching over me, but I think I’d be mad if they didn’t tell me that, wonder why no one is looking out for me. I have never heard anything like this or anything even remotely specific about my future (or my present) and I can’t help but wonder why that is. Maybe the psychics I’ve been to aren’t as talented as others. Maybe the sessions weren’t long enough. Maybe it’s because I’m a very shy person when it comes to what I really think and feel and believe that psychics don’t easily pick up on those things. I don’t know.
At the end of today’s reiki/reflexology session, the healer asked if I had a Sue (name has been changed here) around me. I thought about it and said, “No, none that I can think of. None that are close to me anyway.” She then asked if I worked with a Sue. I said, “I work with a Suzie, but that’s what she goes by, Suzie, not Sue. And I don’t work closely with her.” She asked if I got along with Suzie. I said yes but that I don’t see much of her, don’t get the opportunity to talk to her much, and so don’t know her very well. The she told me to think about, that a Sue was coming through very strongly. And this made me the slightest bit annoyed – not at the healer, but at the fact that she picked up a presence that I know nothing about. It’s just my luck for someone I don’t know at all to come through during my session. Why couldn’t she have asked about my father or someone who is currently close to me or something that made any sense to me at all? Nothing more was said about the Sue. Again, the reading wasn’t the main point of the session, not what I paid for really. She did say though that a few things had come up, that she wanted to ask me about them but didn’t because I was so relaxed and “in the zone” that she didn’t want to interrupt my centering. I wish she had. It might have given me hope where my psychic readings are concerned.
However, I do feel that she’s the real deal. Given more time, maybe she would have said something that makes sense to me. She did say that she might start doing some readings at the yoga studio. I hope she does, I’d be very interested in having one done, a “real” reading. And if not, I can always book her for a private reading. I just hope she finds something to read that has anything to do with me at all.